my polaris

One night while I was doing a part-time job, I have stumbled on my old college friend’s blog. I read some entries to keep me sane from talking to voicemails. One entry struck me so much. It was about finding the northern star Polaris in the bright skies of Manila. It was not really about contemplating a lot about his life. It was more of wondering about what the sky like is in his hometown. I got so inspired by how greatly he writes that I started writing another entry in this bland blog.



Where is my northern star? Where is my Polaris? Where am I? How can I currently locate myself in the vast space in the world? Long, very long silence… I do not know where I am currently. I do not know where I am heading. I cannot see my northern star. I cannot locate my Polaris. I need to find my Polaris to know where I currently am. In knowing where I am, I might start moving to a direction where I could satisfy my dreams, hopes, and wants as well as that of my parents and the people dear to me.

This fragment of thought, that struck me in a much unexpected way, pulled me out of my nearing insanity. I thought, if only, if only I had done more. If only I prevented myself from fleeting into the vastness of nothingness. I could easily look up and find my Polaris shinning like a beacon telling me where I am and what are the directions around me. Maybe this Polaris will point me to a direction where I can find peace, harmony, and the things I long to have. Maybe… My Polaris, if I find you help me.