adulthood

adulthood. the word that i am so fearful to hear and talk about. it usually comes with responsibility and search for meaning. am i really ready for this? i don't think so...

life being a bitch and positivity

i have been trying to think positively these past few weeks thinking that this positivity coupled with hard work will ease out the inauspicious things that is currently attacking me. i was so proud of myself because despite the hardships and the troubles that constantly confront me, i still make sure that i have a positive outlook in life.

these positivity is sometimes not enough to have the things that you hope for. it should always be coupled with hard work. besides positivity should not be tantamount to being expectant. but there are circumstances sometimes that will test your outlook. fate has his way of transposing your life to a limbo.



however positive you are, life will always be a bitch. pushing you to the edge even to the verge of destruction. regardless of how you focus your energy in positivity, negativity will strike back. loosening and weakening the very foundation of your principles to the point of shattering your own very soul. it is pretty ironic that positivism and hard work is always coupled with negativity.

maybe, my positivity on things is not enough to negate negativity. maybe perhaps, i need every human being's positivity. this way i am not the only one negating it. there will be more people. maybe i should start something that will transcend and spread the positivity in me to other people. maybe that way, life will no longer be a bitch.

there will always be hope...
there will always be positivity...

think again

A Japanese friend arrived last Sunday. He is young so i was thinking that he is some kind of a risk taker. As a practice, me and my other house mates usually eat after 4 hours of agonizing work every night. so, we decided that my Japanese friend should try the food that we eat after work.

i am located in the boondocks of Miag-ao, so the only stores open at the wee hours of the morning are two bakeshops and two burger joints. we decided to have burgers. we chose burger machine because we are kind of addicted to their spicy barbecue sauce and it is kind of cheap - two jumbo burgers for Php35 (beat that). Atsu - the Japanese friend was appalled by how cheap and tasty it was. so he devoured everything in no time. with laughs, music, and good conversation, the night was so surreal.

came morning, emerald, my house mate woke me up looking so concerned and panicky. so i jerked out of bed assuming what the problem might be. then poof! she dropped the bomb. Atsu was suffering from diarrhea. the damn burger must have caused it. i am pretty sure that it was not the food that we eat in the house nor the water we drink. we buy purified water because i, myself is kind of sensitive to water. the good memories of last night's surreal moment were pushed out of the picture. my Japanese visitor is suffering from diarrhea.

Talk about cheap good tasting Filipino food, it ended up as a disappointment, a big one. i could've thought that it might end up like this. if you plan to introduce these burger joints to your foreign friends, THINK AGAIN!